Hello Holiday Season

Hello everyone,

So Christmas just passed and New Years eve is just around the corner. Everywhere people are posting about what a great year they have had and what they hope for in the coming year. It’s very human of us to behave this way.

It is so easy to look back on this past year and pinpoint moments of elation and happiness and base my judgment of the year on that because most of us are programmed “Bright Side-rs”. We look back and at the very least we can be grateful that we survived and lived to see the end of the year. We forget the hard learned lessons very easily sometimes in our efforts to be able to look back on our lives and see a series of happy memories and accomplishments to be proud of.

Who wants to look back and see all the bad? I know I don’t, and I’m sure a lot of others don’t either. It would be thoroughly depressing. This Bright Side approach is aided by the fact that we are constantly being reminded to be grateful, that things could be a lot worse. Which is undoubtedly true, things could be a lot worse.

What my problem right now is that this Bright Side approach sets me up year after year to repeat the same mistakes. Not identical ones, mind you. When i say “same mistakes”, I mean mistakes that are caused in essence by resilient character flaws in me that I just don’t deal with much less correct because at the end of each year, I want to look back and be happy about the good things and not dwell too much on the bad.

I make bad decisions about people I choose to trust and count as friends and each year I tell myself I will be smarter and yet, at the end of the year I look back and see all the party moments, all the laughs and all the good cheer and think “awww man, these people aren’t so bad”. And the same shit happens again…and again… and again… It might not be the same people but its the same pattern. I am stupid about how not to let people control me, how to not let them be able to hurt me.

I am also a terrible planner. As much as I suffer from OCD and want to be super organized, sometimes my anxiety gets the best of me and I overwhelm myself, which in turn leads to me getting nothing done, rushing last minute, or missing out on opportunities entirely.

These are the two main reasons that I am being consciously very critical of this past year 2014. I had a great holiday earlier this month and I think this holiday is part of why I have come to this realization. I learnt many things on this trip, about the world and about myself, and one of the lessons I am taking to heart is that good things happen when you stop relying on and waiting for others and just DO stuff you need to get done or want to get done. Another lesson is that I really need to get smart already as I approach my quarter-of-century mark and need to finally take some serious control of my life.

So here I am, saying that, I am flawed. I have some serious faults. But I am also realizing that I can control them, maybe even fix them. The first step was to realize that I am the architect of my own misery. For instance, it is my character flaw to be naive and trust the wrong people, because people are just who they are and what they do is what they do, so if their actions hurt me then in a way its my own fault for making the wrong decisions about said people.

This realization has brought with it a strange peace. You would think that by essentially taking away the crutch of blame throwing, I am being forced to really take a good long hard look in the mirror (which is not easy) and this should not equate to peace. But it does, and I am clearer in my mind and in my vision than I have been for years. I am at peace with people. It isn’t their fault. It’s my own, and because it is my own fault: I CAN FIX IT.

That’s where the peace is, knowing that finally there is an answer. If not an actual answer then at least an inkling as to what I need to do, some guidance in what has been a series of years marked by my stupidity. I have a project that inspires me and drives me: MYSELF.

And that is my main resolution for 2015….I will take care of myself, I will enrich myself, I will protect myself and I will better myself. Its about bloody time too.







I am so very terribly sorry that I have been missing. Life seems to wait for you to find something to do and then stick it’s cellulite covered legs in your way. Otherwise, you could be waiting to do something fun or useful with your time and life will not lift even a finger to intervene. It seems that if you make any initiative of your own, life isn’t too happy and starts to feel insecure in its position as provider. So it all of a sudden will swamp you with all sorts of random things that have no other purpose than to simply get in the way of what you want to do.

I realize that may not make sense to most people, and that is just fine. I tend to grant independent, life like traits to different elements of my life, just because that way I never feel alone. Is that sad? Perhaps it is, but hey, it floats my boat and fills my sails, thank you

So I guess it is time that I officially state what this blog will actually be about.

My agenda will be as follows:

  • Travel

Because who doesn’t like to read what others have to say about places and share their experiences and advice on what not to do and what you simply must do before heading back to wherever you happen to be from.

  • Food

Because I am an ardent and proud Foodie. In fact I have an ambition to one day save up enough moola to be able to go on a food-tour of the world, going to places JUST TO EAT.

  • Everyday experiences

Because my life is a cornucopia of the bizarre and amusing. At least for onlookers. Me? I just feel victimized to be fair.


  • Fashion

Because I am a 22 year old female ^_^ … not that you need to meet any of those to be into fashion. I just cant find a better reason for myself to be as obsessed with attire as I am. The day I find a deeper rooted reason, you will be duly informed.

I have to wonder if my ponderings and ramblings will ever actually gather a following of like minded readers and also get me criticism from people that really don’t like me very much or the way I write. Famous or infamous? Either would do really, as a blogger just starting out (and I know I will regret ever putting this on here should the second instead of the first happen).

So yes, here we go, Ramsha has alot to say little lady bugs!

Such fun being vaguely me on the interwebs 🙂